i hate feeling like a crazy person!!!! we met a little over a month ago and u said it took 30 days to know someone. seems like at 30 days you both gave up and kept trying and locked me into a ride that i did and didn’t want to be on. i’m not sure how to think about you or get through my day when my mind is in limbo. i’m fucking exhausted but i also feel love and it hurts so much. you smell like the coziest piece of life but you act like the shittiest stinky fuckwad. it’d be nice to have something normal for once but instead i must be in a dramatic fucking situation as! always! it’s too hard to walk away now. feel like a tangled necklace. fuck!!!!!
me: we never talk any more
also me: never reaches out, with increasingly crippling anxiety
i never ever in a billion years thought my ethnicity or “religion” would matter but i’m a fucking dumbass and of course it does
remember when i caved anyway
lakeith stanfield
